"... Yes, the problem for me is that the books I have written have allowed me to learn to know, but the problem is what they have masked. You see. I know that the books I have written allow me to learn lots of things. But they have masked the problems."

You mean that they have masked your real thoughts or feelings? Or they have masked you from living life.

"Yes. From living. From living life."

(Frédéric Gros to the journalist of Guardian)

Alas! Not only writing, also reading....